In my last blog I wrote - "Maybe I’ve had a little glimpse of Light, but my vision is limited as I live in another layer of what feels to be never ending layers of ash." I continue to learn what being in the ashes, or as my friend, Linda Jean said, in the coals, is about. For me, it's been a dismemberment. The Past is over, yet the Present is filled with the Past. My town is gone. My home, Pachamama's Oasis, exists only in memories and pictures, and the land is in the process of being cleared....

Friends, The Phoenix is a mystical bird. One of the stories is, as it nears the end of its life, the Phoenix builds a nest of aromatic branches and spices, sets it on fire, and becomes consumed within the flames. Then at some point afterward, it rises up from the ashes. A classic metaphor for rebirth. The thing is - none of the stories I've explored speak about what happens to the Phoenix when it's actually in the ashes. This is what I've spent the past 5 months learning about.  And am still...

January 9th is 2 months plus 1 day post Fire. Michele and I are thrilled to offer this opportunity to come together and continue our individual healing process'. Each of us has been affected. Whether you drove through the Skyway firestorm and lost your beloved home, as I did, or welcomed and lived in service to the survivors, as Michele did, one thing is for sure. We're All in This Together. UNITY is called for now, more than ever. Individual and Collective. Let's unify our hearts and...

Friends, I post this about once a year, usually at a time I need to re-read and absorb it. That time is Now.  It's probably the most dear and profound message ever to come through. It happened in 2005. She spoke to a healing class, and when She was complete, we were stunned and immediately listened to the recording. The fire catapulted me into unchartered territory. I believe if I can truly Rest in Her Arms, Align with my Hearts Desires, and Allow Her to Care for me in all the ways, the path...

Friends, My evacuation lifted on Saturday, so Apu and I left Weed and drove to Paradise and Pachamama's Oasis. He stayed in the car while I walked my 2/3 acre. Around and around, many times. I must have been there a few hours, walking and taking pictures. Arty devastation pics. Some of you might have seen a few on facebook. I think I was pretty dissociated. On Sunday, Kathy, Krissy, Scott, Michele, and I went up. In the rain, we donned our hazmat suits and excavated. For hours. Another day of...

Dear Friends and Family, Known and Unknown, I'm writing this on December 13th, 5 weeks since the fire. That day is embedded within my body and soul, and I find myself in a dance with it. One of my partners is me - my personal, multi-layered experiences of shock and grief and anger and deep sadness. Another is the collective. Because this is both a personal and collective experience. When my personal partner returns, she always gives me a big spin around - my privilege, my blessedness, my...

Friends, Some dear friends set up a gofundme for me and asked me to share it here. I'm learning to say, "Yes. Yes. Thank you." I'm saying it a lot. Receiving and Receiving. It helps to know that one day, because my Life is always like this, after I walk this path, I will return the ayni (reciprocity) in ways unknown to me at this time. https://www.gofundme.com/ann-fuller-recovering-from-campfire?member=1124616 I pray for healing for  everyone affected by this fire. I was privileged to be taken...

This blog post was inspired by the women and men I recently met at a Wisdom Healing Chigong Retreat. They REALLY want to heal, and ARE healing. I am humbled by their courage and commitment. Anyone with an ailment  - physical, emotional, mental, energetic, or spiritual - would most likely answer, “YES. OF COURSE!" But what does it take to heal? And is YES the true answer? The foundational key to all healing is self-love. I know this sounds trite and overused, but it’s true. No one can fix us or...

Imagine being in the center of a large, multi-layered, bubble. I’m sure you’ve experienced this. When you’re in a pristine place in nature, don't you feel expansive? When you’re frightened or angry, doesn't the contraction feel almost claustrophobic? Your soul is breathing. The soul is located in the center of our chest, in what I call the “heart/soul space.” It radiates out and encircles the body. Composed of refined and heavy energies, soul serves as a container for spirit, as well as a...

  Khuya means sacred object in Quechua, the language of the Q’ero, descendants of the Inca. The Khuya Ceremony is part of their heritage. Few Q'ero elders perform it, and thanks to Juan Nunez del Prado, Andean Priest and Mystic, it has been kept alive. The Khuya Ceremony takes place within the soul, or energy bubble, as the Q'ero call it. This is the field of living energy surrounding our physical bodies that expands, contracts, and defines our personal space (or lack of.) The purpose of...